The compound area on a bright & sunny morning....Quiet, depressing and death-like....
Post on Thursday......
Yesterday was so not my day! I felt stressed out the entire day! Frizzled, frazzled and absolutely annoyed! It didn't help to have a bad hair day too! Where can I get a decent salon-styled professional hair treatment and trim here in the bloody desert? Ugh! If you're stressed, it doesn't help when you notice that you're "fugly"(f**king ugly!) Please excuse my French!
Let's not get into specifics. Suffice to tell you that I was so not in the mood for anything! I was actually having one of those days that I don't wanna go to work. Not because of 'malas' or tired, but more towards 'takde hati' or burnt out!
So, today I'm taking it easy.
Post on Friday......
Today I managed to finish some work. Cleaned up my room. Made cekodok pisang for brekkie after I found a sad & soggy looking banana in my fridge. Made nasi goreng daging for dinner & tomorrow's lunch. Watched Project Runway season 4 on you tube. Listened to some music online and felt a little normal. Did some yoga & then cardio on the treadmill. Called home because I had a dream of my bro, Amir. Hope he's feeling better by now. And also coz I'm kinda homesick.....
Emotions today...much better than yesterday. Read this book titled "Don't sweat the small stuff" kinda like a self-help book about being positive and all that crap.....It's not that I don't believe it, I'm just getting tired and I need a break.....A really long break.....Can't wait for July......Another 8 weeks to go.....
2 comments:
Don't repress...- express. Yeah, let people know that you're tired and burn out - we're humans after all. Change your baju, your teaching style, whatever it takes. Update resume...circulate them around and see what opportunities available. Plan for new syllabus, maybe new subject approach....Nawal, you're an energy giver that's why you get tired when your condition zaps it away. Compartmentalize your feelings and focus on day to day ok. Hang on babe..I pray for you always. :)
thanks doll! i'll try each and every one of your ideas.
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